Hey Ho. I'm bored. So, will do a lil post for myself?

Ahhh! People keep on telling me about the IPP thingy thing. Haha, lucky I didn't come to school. Give the Animal Waste Club a hooray! ( You know what I mean? ) Lalalalala... I want to kill myself. If I ask you for a gun, will you give me? I'm going crazy. Tell me why? Please. ( Random )

Hmm, I do my personal post here to let go ... okay?


I'll just type nonsense.


Just a blink of an eye. Just seconds to breath. I knew it already. But the time, it's too short. Fears, tears, worry, sadness, why do all these need to stick to me throught out my life? Why? Reality really hurts me deep and leaves a big hole in my heart that can't be mended. Why must reality be so cruel. I'm typing out all these just to express myself to let it all go. But does it or doesn't it help me? I don't even know. I cried crocodile tears, so? I need to let go, so I don't have to feel my heart soo heavy.

I cried not 'cos of love instead of problems that you don't have to know, or you don't need to know. I think, you'll never read this. But when will you really understand how my heart hurts. I hate myself! I hate being me! I hate being in the state I am right now. But will someone invent a time-machine just for me? To change the mistakes that I've done. To take back words I wasn't suppose to say. To say words I was suppose to say. To reverse whatever stupid actions I've done. To do actions that I was suppose to do. To ..................

I'm just speechless. I tried my very best to keep everything to myself 'cos even if I told everyone, will it make a big difference of change? Will it? And if I told everyone and some who hates me, or even the type of people who hates people like me, or who doesn't want to bother about me, would they care? Would they care even if I told them? I'm just wasting my breathe. I know, I'm useless, hopeless. Others can do it, why can't I? Maybe I need sometime. But it isn't the end yet right? It's just the beginning yknow? Somewhere I went wrong. I was once so strong. I won't forget this. It'll stick in my head forvever.

I'm getting frustrated and sick deep inside. You'll never see it. I'm getting older, faster, each day, but will you notice it? You'll never see it. You don't know me. But I once knew you. Someday you will cry like I cried. Someday you will miss me like i missed u. Someday you will love me but I won't love you. Someday you will feel like i need u but guess what i won't. Someday you will be confused just like i was. Someday you will like beating yourself up because when I told you the truth, you'll regret what you've done when I loved you. Someday you will need me but I will look back and reflect how I was so stupid for you.

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